The opening date for my solo show at the Dare County Arts Council is quickly approaching, I need, I MUST be painting non stop to finish the paintings that I will be hanging soon. Today I was expecting to be painting first thing in the morning and yet, it has not happened yet. I’m just about to start, right after I finish this post. I happen to have spent all my morning “thinking, researching, planning”.
A couple of weeks ago I was doing a little bit of accounting just to realize that, at this point of the year, almost 100% that I have earned in my art business, I have re-invested, leaving me with about $500 profit…yikes. I wanted to cry when I saw those numbers. My husband reassured me: “how much would be the profit for all the inventory you have and have not sold yet?”….ok, the numbers started looking much better. My business is completely new. I would say I did not start seeing myself as an actual “business” until this year; and then, something as obvious as an the initial investment to create the necessary inventory for the year, took me by surprise. Even though I know I now have quite a bit of inventory that will generate profit, I’m still “thinking, researching, planning” constantly (what new materials can I use? what other framing options do I have, what new product could be a “hit”), to try to make that ongoing investment as smart as possible.
Even though I believe that all that “thinking” is necessary, I can’t help but feeling guilty that I didn’t spend my morning painting. I know I could have left all of “that” for another morning after my show opening, but I guess I couldn’t help myself, after all, all of “that” is very important as well, if I intend to make a living as an artist.
But so is creating more artwork, so… I better get to painting now!